The more I face this, the less I dare to say that I'm not losing my breath. No, I'm not losing my breath.
But it's safe to say that I've been having these weird thoughts lately, and none of them will ever wash away the pain.
Thin lights. This head of mine has been through better times.
A state of mind where all that shined has turned blind.
Inside, I try to flash a smile I cannot find.
Faded, I betrayed who I used to be.
My memory’s tainted, but I can't shake it.
I'm lost in the depth of my own wreck,
Drowned in the weight of my own guilt.
Aimless, I feel I'm hanging by a thread.
My life goes drifting; I'm in over my head.
Wake up in a cold sweat, a burial for my mindset.
I'm sick of regret, and being in debt, this sense of pity for myself.
Two voices echo in my head. I can't deny, I know they're right.
I can't choose what is best.
Confined in a bed of lies and things I left unsaid.
This pressure won't leave me until I am long-dead.
released April 27, 2017
Picture by: Kristen Ann Marie
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